This is it

When life goes to shit
she never has a fit
Just sit at the bottom of the river
And let the currents pass
I wish that were it
I look at her face and see a mystery
The thoughts in her mind
Are hers to hide
I don’t have a clue of what's going on
I wish I knew what makes me so blue
I remember the night
That she told me of the black and white
Two opposites attracted to each other
To try and achieve neutrality
But it was in that night that I did not speak my mind
And still from that night I have not told her how I feel
And that was a long time ago
Months have passed and still there's a cast
That prevents me from reaching out
To clasp the hand
And feel the gentle touch that was yours
Im such a fucking idiot, to not have tolled you this
And now I can only think of the vital mistake I made
But all along she told me to give it time
And to wait for you, because at the time
You were very blue
So I did not speak my mind, but instead gave it time
And now you are gone from my sight
Now my mind is blank
And I do not know what to think
What is it that I should do?